My first about-my-shitty-life entry. Here goes.
I’ve been thinking these past few months about my self, reflecting on some events, actions, etc. Did I actually change in these past few months, or this year perhaps? Lets review my life as I remember it since High school till College. If you are not interested in my life, skip. LOL it’s categorized life for my sake.
Highschool: I might sweep through this.
My FIRST year, was a teeny weird year for me, as I was adjusting to my HS life in an all-boys school here in Marikina. I just joined Youth for Christ last month or so. I was active in the said organization while mushing my MMORPG’s and drinking a dose or two of Japanese culture. STILL trolling people around lol. I also joined this choir group the same school year. First year summer was fun, still naive to the true nature of my organization(HEY knowing people WITHOUT knowing them was cool, back then). I was really really active to this organization that I have to repeat that “really” word. I always come in in time though I was always the first or fifth, or inside those. Those were the times where I get sad when almost everybody was so late. Same goes with the choir. LOL choir is actually a YFC activity so, yeah was “really really” active. Enough with summer let’s go to second year. OH, before I forget, here is the bookmark of my first affectionate emotion.
The SECOND year was full of LOL. Teachers are cool. I jerking off inside the library, and I did, now that I think about that, how the hell? Anyway, I did it. It was not so heavy year compared to first year, almost all of the batch clowns are in my class. Cramming is a trend already, and i pitched in. I met a friend and LOL’ed together. Summe– ok let’s skip that, it’s the same as first year summer.
The THIRD year was my first academic year. I learned how to play with math, got interested in logic, my first unforced borrowed book in the library. So yeah, an academic year. I did not cram for an assignment after a year, LOL. I also got deeper in the Japanese culture thing. Chemistry was awesome. Awesome teacher gave me a motivation to become a Chemical Engineer cool right? Wait later. On my other side, I tried learning how to actually edit Friendster profiles but I have no perseverance so(is this last year? hmm idunnolol)…NEXT is! Summe—CRAP it’s the same as last year which is the same as last last year! The only difference is, I’m starting to realize that this organization is just trolling me. HAHA!
FOURTH year, this is getting long. WELL fourth year is like a continuation of last year, it’s also an academic year! YAY! Moving on, in this year, I was introduced to C++ Programing (THOUGH THEY ARE ACTUALLY TEACHING C WTF?). Logic last year paid off. My school is offering several elective courses to choose from they are many, but I had a dilemma on what to pick between Desktop Publishing and Adv. Chemistry. In the end, I chose Adv. Chem. FUKKEN TEACHER CRUSHED MY MOTIVATION and enrolled in UP and UST for Computer Science course. Somewhere around here, my organization was f*cked up and some of my friends were stowed away, or maybe “we” were stowed away. Summer was depressing, hell depressing. But I was happy, get it?
On to College: I enrolled in University of Santo Tomas. meh, as if that is important.
First year, I got some crushes upon my classmate who sits exactly diagonal at me, but we were rearRAGEd so meh, but rearrangement was expected. She is now sitting exactly OPPOSITE of me, or maybe not, just sooo far. HAHA. The Gurl behind me was lol. The boy beside him was also lol. They didn’t LOL’ed together, but lol.(okay what?) D: I’m missing my seatmate now, He–WAIT I’M OFF TOPIC! Okay, so first year college was full of firsts. I’m not telling all, but some only. The first time I commuted to school, first time living outside of my home, first time going to a mall alone, wait no, not alone–with friends. Anyway, This year also started my bad habit of cutting classes. I think this is the time that I’m already getting rotten. I played PET SOCIETY because I miss her(her is guess who is her) though I stopped after this year. SUMMER! is when I was already getting burned out of YFC. HMM. OH take note that I will not be using semesters here. I found chartfag yeah! lol anyway, I was whorring MMO’s in this time line, MOAR Japanese culture though haha.
Second year! WAS idk second year is second year, I was trying to get rid of my MMO’s and start studying again, until my stupud idklol Physics Prof came in play, good thing my Physics Lab Prof saves my demotivations. Here marks the day that I became more enthusiastic with my course,(LOL it’s C Programming that’s why) Idid my machine problems at home did lotsa assignments at home yes. Although second sememster was Java Programing, my prof is so funny I cannot concentrate. It was a hard sem for me. SUMMER was my Technika Summer. I grinded technika like there’s no tomorrow. Always at timezone playing technika after summer classes. AND, That fukkin thing happened. And I think that THING ruined my momentum in life. Well I’m not blaming everything on those events, It’s almost all. Somewhere there also marks the day, that I got jealous of someone, which is bad because I said to myself before that it was kinda stupid to be jealous to someone.
So much on my literal life, let’s evaluate it. I think, more negative happened when, I got out of my former organization which I joined in. Although more of them are hypocrites, I was a much better person. Now that I got better friends I got worse. What changes a man to become a better person? Are they better people, or worse? In my Third year, I became more unpunctual and more unpunctual. Maybe because my former organization is copy a face who is better, while my latter community is not copying a face but enforcing me to become worse. These are just my thoughts, they might just be paranoia. But is what happening to me good? Has this become a worse habit than being with hypocrite friends? Just when did I change? Or did I not accept the change until now?
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